Amidst all the recent tragedies in Munich and Germany as well as the rest of the world. I am thinking of shutting this blog down. I cannot condone hate in any country in the middle of everything the world is going thorough. This blog was a release and way for me to put all my frustrations, hurt and confusion of living in a country that had very little tolerance of others. It doesn't mean all of Germany but of a town called Augsburg in Schwabish Bavaria a very closed minded town stuck in post war mentality even as of today. Every single thing was true although it was my personal opinion and experience. I have had many comments sent to me many which I can't post and others really appreciating that they were having a hard time too. One sent talked of suicide and that broke my heart. Some people are still suffering from their experiences there and if it can help one person to not feel alone, then I've done my job.
I am sad with the state of the world and even what is happening in America and even Austria. Where they are thinking of electing a Nazi type radical president. It is tragic and scary to see what may happen. I would like to apologize if this blog caused pain or discourse and don't want to continue the spread of hate in the world.
I am at a really good place in my life and all this is a long memory of my pain and suffering from years back. After numerous discussions and even reading books of other experiences in Germany, it seems this intolerance of foreigners, rudeness and ignorance as well as ethno centric behavior still exists in year 2016. I hope communication and dialogue can help people to be more tolerant and loving and welcoming. Well thought I would share my thoughts. Send me comments to let me know what you think. Stay safe and take care.
Desperate Housewife in USA
Sunday, July 24, 2016
Monday, February 1, 2016
Update holy cow 2016!
Forgive me! I have been busy with my new life in LA!! Yes the freaking USA people to me the greatest place on earth! One-because it's my hometown and you know what? there's lots of reasons why people move to sunny California! Ok I guess I have 6 YEARS to catch up on with you guys and seriously I put this blog in the past. So literally I just read all the comments today -ALL the comments...you know the ones from the supporters to the haters that called me every name you can think of. I love the Internet. Lol so I do not and will not apologize for everything I wrote. It was not exxagerated although it almost sounds like I made this stuff up its so crazy. IT IS ALL TRUE EVERY SINGLE STORY, EVERY SINGLE DETAIL, IT HAPPENED! Now those are my opinions and feelings of what I felt at the time. It was hard, yes it was and it was freaking cold, the food sucked and yes some Germs were nasty. Very very nasty kinda like the haters on this blog. And some of you were really ignorant as well. You weren't there, you didn't have those experiences like I did. I had a hard time and I shared my opinions and feelings to help myself get over it and express it and to educate others or at least give them my opinion on my experience there. What I did find was it did help many many others who experienced similar experiences including racism etc.
I am not a negative person and don't want to hate so much. In fact I kept this blog private for awhile and did not promote it at all. I wondered if I should even publish such a site but I thought if it could help someone then why not! I also feared the German polizei from coming after me for writing the N word so much. Yup it's that scary.
Now some comments are just plain nasty and expletives that I will not post here. But I will laughingly clarify some facts to you all that are still curious. ;)))
1. No I am not a fat American. Lol lol! I was and still am skinny my entire life. Being Asian I think I did not adapt well to the German diet of fatty, heavy grease laden food. No it's not all fatty but a lot are and in the countrysides and smaller villages that's what they eat. I did gain a ton of weight and some muffin tops when i was there. ;))
2. America is not perfect but neither is Germany. I lived in Augsburg, Germany and after discussing this with many foreigners including Germans and Austrians, if they have any clue of what Schwabish/Bavaria area culture and mores are, they definitely agree with me and felt sorry for me. You see I learned A LOT in the latter years. Schwabish/Bavaria area is one of the most closed-minded areas in Germany next to yes the Nazi capital of the world. They (not all but most) do not like foreigners in their towns and do not celebrate other cultures, ethnicities etc. It's just a fact- people. So as I said we had a nice time in Hamburg and Berlin and even East Germany but Augsburg that's a whole different world. And I did not like it at all. I had a hard time living there. Period.
3. Looking back and reading all the polarizing comments I laugh and cry. I don't feel good about writing about "hate" so I feel bad about that. I shouldn't hate an entire country after my 3 plus years of living there but like I said I went through it and it was a a huge culture shock for me as an LA girl from America. It's much harder for a LA girl from sunny California to move to a freezing backwards town stuck in postwar mentality like Augsburg then vice versa. No Augsburg is not Munich and if you live in Munich it's very very different to live an hour outside, you are now living in a village mentality - very different. I had very strong opinions one way or the other if it sounds ignorant, spoiled or foolish so be it. That's the way I write, that's the way I felt. Love me or hate me - your choice.
4. To all the supporters- thank you! It was so nice to read your personal stories and share your experiences good and bad. I hope if it helped just one person gain some knowledge, insight, opinion, or amusement then I'm glad. To me it was truly therapeutic and to my poor Austrian husband who had to hear all my complaining and crying for years, I thank him for supporting me through those hard times and for getting us back to LA!
5. To the haters- "kuess meinen arsch!" Haha just kidding. Ok - I'm sorry you don't agree but like I said those were my opinions, true experiences, real tears and hard times. You were not there and some have never lived there so you have no idea what I personally went through.
6. I'll try to keep current with you guys so keep the comments coming! I'll write a post of my last few years in Vienna then our migration back to sunny LA whooooohoooo! Auf Wiedersehen people!!
I am not a negative person and don't want to hate so much. In fact I kept this blog private for awhile and did not promote it at all. I wondered if I should even publish such a site but I thought if it could help someone then why not! I also feared the German polizei from coming after me for writing the N word so much. Yup it's that scary.
Now some comments are just plain nasty and expletives that I will not post here. But I will laughingly clarify some facts to you all that are still curious. ;)))
1. No I am not a fat American. Lol lol! I was and still am skinny my entire life. Being Asian I think I did not adapt well to the German diet of fatty, heavy grease laden food. No it's not all fatty but a lot are and in the countrysides and smaller villages that's what they eat. I did gain a ton of weight and some muffin tops when i was there. ;))
2. America is not perfect but neither is Germany. I lived in Augsburg, Germany and after discussing this with many foreigners including Germans and Austrians, if they have any clue of what Schwabish/Bavaria area culture and mores are, they definitely agree with me and felt sorry for me. You see I learned A LOT in the latter years. Schwabish/Bavaria area is one of the most closed-minded areas in Germany next to yes the Nazi capital of the world. They (not all but most) do not like foreigners in their towns and do not celebrate other cultures, ethnicities etc. It's just a fact- people. So as I said we had a nice time in Hamburg and Berlin and even East Germany but Augsburg that's a whole different world. And I did not like it at all. I had a hard time living there. Period.
3. Looking back and reading all the polarizing comments I laugh and cry. I don't feel good about writing about "hate" so I feel bad about that. I shouldn't hate an entire country after my 3 plus years of living there but like I said I went through it and it was a a huge culture shock for me as an LA girl from America. It's much harder for a LA girl from sunny California to move to a freezing backwards town stuck in postwar mentality like Augsburg then vice versa. No Augsburg is not Munich and if you live in Munich it's very very different to live an hour outside, you are now living in a village mentality - very different. I had very strong opinions one way or the other if it sounds ignorant, spoiled or foolish so be it. That's the way I write, that's the way I felt. Love me or hate me - your choice.
4. To all the supporters- thank you! It was so nice to read your personal stories and share your experiences good and bad. I hope if it helped just one person gain some knowledge, insight, opinion, or amusement then I'm glad. To me it was truly therapeutic and to my poor Austrian husband who had to hear all my complaining and crying for years, I thank him for supporting me through those hard times and for getting us back to LA!
5. To the haters- "kuess meinen arsch!" Haha just kidding. Ok - I'm sorry you don't agree but like I said those were my opinions, true experiences, real tears and hard times. You were not there and some have never lived there so you have no idea what I personally went through.
6. I'll try to keep current with you guys so keep the comments coming! I'll write a post of my last few years in Vienna then our migration back to sunny LA whooooohoooo! Auf Wiedersehen people!!
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